The Abuse Survivor

The Abuse Survivor;
You Have Been to Hell and Back.
There is no Doubt in My Mind
Fortitude You do not Lack.

Wounds Have Run Deep
And Your Scars Are Plenty.
But with God Pushing You Forward
Your Smiles Will Be Many.

You Fought With the Devil
And the Battle You have Won.
God Has Given You the Strength
To Carry On.

So Rest Well, My Friend
Life's Beauty to See.
May Your Heart be Refreshed
And Your Spirit set Free.

Cheryl E Gordon
5/17/10

Healing of the Body & Spirit

Healing of the Body & Spirit

It is Important That We Give Ourselves Permission To Heal.
Our Body is as Sensitive to our Own Thought
As it is To Outside Influence.
Healing of the Body Begins With Healing of the Spirit.

Cheryl E Gordon
August 25, 2009

Affirmation For Breaking the Chain of Abuse

Affirmation For "Breaking the Chain of Abuse"

You have Assaulted the Body
But, You Could Not Steal My Soul.
Now is the Time
For My Spirit to Be Whole.

You Do Not Have My Permission,
I am Absolving All My Fear,
While My Spirit Grows Stronger
Your End is Growing Near.

Fact:  I have been told by a close friend who is being seen for post traumatic stress syndrome from a past history of horrendous abuse, that her psychiatrist told her that repetitive abuser's life spans are really quite short compared to the general population.  He is quite knowledgeable about these things, and I believe what she told her.  That is, many die in their late 50's or 60's or even earlier from their harsh and dangerous lifestyle, and others may meet an untimely death as a result of retaliation from their own predatory actions.

Cheryl E Gordon
4/5/10

(I wrote this as a Strength Statement for Making a Break from the Abuser and for Spiritual Healing.  I Hope That You Find it Helpful)

The Arena of Light and Dark

"Light May Enter the Arena of Darkness, 
But Darkness Cannot Enter the Arena of Light."

Cheryl E Gordon
3/14/10

 

I wrote this and Posted it on Twitter on March 14th of this year (2010).  I also included it in my Inspirational Blog @ the link above.  It is a simple, yet powerful message and one of Hope, so I thought it fitting to add it here on this blog. 

Please Allow Me Expound:

I truly Believe that Light is more Powerful than Darkness, and that Good is More Powerful than Evil.  If you Shine a Light in a Dark Space, it will Illuminate it.   A Bright Light Shows Us the Way.

I Believe this to be True and Would Like to Share the Following Thoughts with You.  You May Accept them or Reject Them.  It is Your Choice.

I Believe that Although One May be subject to Suffering and Pain on this Earth, We Can Be Assured of Achieving & Reaching the "Eternal Healing & Loving Light" Upon Our Physical Death~ If We Believe this to be So. I Know this Because I was Able to Experience This in a brief period of "Physical Death".

In my Near Death Experience in 1983, I Was Lovingly Lead & Spiritually Pulled towards the "Wondrous Light" (others have spoken of the "Tunnel" and It is unique to each of us that have experienced it).  Because of this Experience, I have been given a Glimpse of the Brilliance the Everlasting Light, and I have no Fear of Spiritual Darkness.  My Spirit Returned to My Physical Body because my Mission on Earth had not been Accomplished.  

At that Time, I Understood that All have a Mission Chosen for this Earth, before we were Born.  We are Part of the Plan.  Our Unique Individual Mission is a Series of Life Altering Events towards the "Better Good" and "Personal Spiritual Growth".  We Do Not Remember our Purpose @ Birth, and Spend Our entire Life going through the Maize of Accomplishing this Mystery of Purpose and Spiritual Growth.  Some of Us Procrastinate, Deny it's Existence, Get Lost Along the Way, or Downright Refuse to Carry it Through.  We Know this as a feeling in our "Gut", a Tugging at our Mind, and it is left Open as Being Our Choice.  When  On our Path, We Feel it to be Right.

I "Slacked Off" quite a bit before my Near Death Experience; i.e. being quite Juvenile in My Spiritual Journey.  One Might Say This Has Been a Spiritual "Wake Up Call" for me.  Trauma Often Opens Us Up to Our Special Purpose (if it doesn't kill us first~ and then we are back to square one so to speak).  Once We Get Over the Shock and Assault, or Assault and then Shock of the Trauma, if We Try Hard and Have Faith, We can Achieve Our Wildest Dreams.  I Know this to be True, and I have been very Busy Since Then!

Abuse Survivor

To the Abuse Survivor:

Because of Your Innocence You Were Chosen,
By No Fault of Your Own.

Because of Your Strength, You Have Survived,
By the Power of Your Own,

And Through the Love Of Others.

Cheryl E Gordon
3/9/10

Ode To Freedom From The Chains of Sexual Abuse

Ode to Freedom From the Chains of Sexual Abuse

I Awoke Last Night To Write Down & to Speak This Truth, & You Have Awoken Dear Friend, To Speak the Forgotten Truth of the Horrible Deeds Done Against You...

You Were Groomed by Your Captors to Believe You Were In Their Power & Made To Think You Have Done Wrong, But You Have Done No Wrong.

Many Have Been Silenced So Long That Their Spirits Forgot Who They Are.

For Those Mortally Wounded in Spirit, Let This Day Be Your Day of Resurrection!
Your Strength Shall Be in Your Fighting Spirit, and in Your Numbers; For You Are as Numerous as The Petals of the Flowers.

If You are Weak, Let Your Caring Friends Hold You in Their Loving Arms as You Shout Out Your Freedom ~ Whether in Person, or in Alias.

Shout Loudly So The World May Know the Pain You Have Endured in Your Innocence & Forced Participation.  Let the World Know the Dark Secrets of Your Perpetrator.  To Expose The Wicked Will Save the Innocent, and Free Your Spirit.

No Longer Shall Their Lies and Wicked Deeds Have Power Over You.  For You Are Now Free From Their Chains!  Your Revenge Shall Be to Expose Their Secretive Hideous Deeds to the World.

No One Can Hide from Their Truth Revealed.  Their Punishment Will Rain Down from the Heavens and All Corners of the Earth.  The People of the World Shall Stand Up Against Them & You Shall Live Your Life in Freedom~  Freedom From the Chains of Harmful Memories & Freedom to Respectfully Pay Tribute To the Release of Your Painful Past.

Cheryl E Gordon
11/13/09

My Friend, Little Butterfly Spirit Girl

This is another Butterfly Spirit Tale.  There are so Many Unheard Stories of Injustice Needing to be Heard and the System Changed to Support Their Causes.

I have a little friend; One who has endured a hard life at an early age.  She lost both parents early in life and was passed around by her relatives who either could not adequately care for her, or who did not want her.  During this time, she was sexually abused and when this was discovered, was removed from that setting and was awarded to another Guardian's care.  This was a caring distant relative and she is now receiving couseling and love.  However, the past has left it's damage.  Needless to say, she suffers low self esteem and insecurity, feelings of alientation, and identity issues.  This is understandable.

The trial against her molestive abuser has successfully been legally delayed now for 2 years while she must wait to move on with her life. The perpetrator however has finished college, got a job and is free to pursue his goals and God Only Knows What These Are.  Perhaps he feels that if he stalls the process, she will forget about what he has done, and he will go free without any consequence.

My friend is now 10 years old and of course has Not Forgotten or gotten over his Stealing and Abuse of her young and vulnerable Life.  She is emotionally scared.  I am giving her the best support I can as a friend, but she needs this injustice resolved in court without further postponing of the case.  We know that confronting and addressing the situation in her honesty will help her to heal and move on.  I am not sure what will be happening on the abuser's end other than he is now denying this has happened and he has always had his family's support.  Initially, he confessed he did do these things, but I understand he has now recanted and will challenge this confession in court.

My little friend receives counseling and knows she will have to mentally relive the abusive events & may even have to face the abuser and strangers of the court to tell her story.  (Surely, they will not make her actually face the abuser, but I am told that it is a possibility!)  Even an adult facing their perpetrator is weak and frightened when made to face that Demon Entity in court!

And, of course the Defendant's Lawyer will do his/her best to discredit her.  I pray he does not succeed.  This is what we call our Honorable Judicial System.  There are so very many flaws that need fixing and we need this done Now!

I hope by telling these true stories of the Butterfly Spirits, and pointing out flaws in The System, that others can join forces to challenge the system and by doing so, bring perpetrators to justice in a timely fashion.

Justice needs to be served before each Case gets "Cold" and the Outer Wound of the Injured Spirit Scabs Over, leaving an Infection of the Inner Body & Spirit.

With time, the perpetrator becomes more clever at hiding and obscuring the truth, avoiding the law and consequences, and may in actuality go free.  This Must Not Happen!  Enough is Enough.  The System Must be fixed....

Justice IS Served Feb 2 2010: Yesterday Was a Wonderful Day for My Little Friend. She Saw Her Abuser Sentenced & Cuffed and was Allowed to Read Him Her Rights! It took 2 years for this case to come to trial (it happened in 2007 when she was 8).  Her Abuser Finally Admitted to being Guilty after Denying it. (we believe he did this now because his sentence would be lessened if he did so outside of a higher court with a jury).  His Sentence was 6 years imprisonment, & 10 years probation.  He pleaded Guilty on All Charges Presented. 
My friend is now 10 and was allowed to go to the front of the court room, directly in front of him to Confront Him with Her Own Comments (I am not sure of the legal term for this).  She did so with the help of her Counselor and he was not allowed to respond.  Her comments were poignant and wise beyond her 10 years.  She wound up by stating "I had to move to four different homes in the last two years after my Momma and Daddy died, but you got to stay with your Parents in your House. But, I am now able to live with my Aunt and Uncle, and You are going to Jail."  I am so proud of her! She has been dealt some hard blows, but can now move on with her life.  She has much support and love here.

"Butterfly Spirit"

This is a true story of pain and anguish, renewed to Hope and Life.  It begins as a story of One, but is applicable to Oh, So Many. It is a story needing to be Told, beginning in darkness and ending in the Light.

Waking from a living sleep with a flood of forgotten painful memories of decades passed, a history of suppressed violence and fear bubbles; rising to the surface of her tortured mind. She again cries for help and is now Finally Heard. Others Join with her in Her Fight for Life and breaking away from the chains of her dark past.

It is like a reoccurring bad dream.  At first frightened and denying, she is now willing to Psychologically and Spiritually Face her Attackers of long ago. As they slowly emerge from the recesses of her repressed mind, She now meets Each One with Intent and Fervor. A little more is Revealed with each New Day, as if it was only yesterday.

She mentally faces her “Demons of Old” and their psychological hold on her. She is a True Survivor, Relentless in her Desire to be Free from her past, which has held her so long in "Mental Chains". There are No Free Days, as each day has a Specific Challenge she must Meet and Address. It is a tiring, painful Cleansing; a Purging of her Wounded Spirit and Body.

Methodically Healing, She is Now Equipped and Ready to Face Each Day, moving further Forward in her Sacred and Renewed Life.  

She Emerges from Her Protective but no Longer Necessary Cocoon, Carefully Drying her Wings in the Light, Eager to Fly.

She is a Butterfly Spirit.  

Because She is the First I have addressed here as the "Butterfly Spirit", I will honor her on this site with the Given Name, "Alpha Butterfly Spirit"....


Alpha Butterfly Spirit Asked me to Post this Comment here for Her:

Just as a caterpillar changes into a butterfly, so does a person as they struggle
through life.  We face the challenges and gain some element of peace from our faith in God so that eventually our healing comes from within.  "One who knows"

Cheryl Gordon 10/04/09